Why do i feel like this?

this only happens when you allow it to happen. it sounds like your waiting for someone else to make the first move, in whatever case. your quite rightfully just being respectfull to not be too pushy towards others. start joining hobby groups, like photography cles, because people interested in art often feel alot of emotion so you can relate and share stories (and bond). go out to clubs, there is no social standing there, its just happy people looking for a good time and meeting new people. join a gym - you surprisingly meet great, positive people there that would influence you in a positive way, its great! and dont be scared about not looking good enough, everyone is there for the same reason! sometimes its hard to begin, but once you've started you just easily flow through on it. just take a risk, you never know what great things will happen!